Ackward postion...not to ackward but the best I could find
Monday, March 7, 2011
Day 7
Picture of your most treassure item..... My Family <3>
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Day 6
A person you would love to trade places with......... My Husband who is deployed
I know he doesnt tell me everything that happens "over there" and I cant even imagine what it is like. But I would like to know what it is like, I would like to know about that part of his life. Also I would like him to see what it is like being me. Taking care of 3 kids, activities, laundry, cleaning, ect.. I am NOT saying 1 is easier then the other at all they are both different jobs and cant be compared.
2 month
Its hard to believe it has only been 2 months since we said Good Bye, Since we last hugged, Since we last Kissed, Since I felt secure and that everything was going to be okay. I miss him so much and I keep thinking this will get easier as time goes on.....It hasnt it just seems to get harder. The Kids are doing better but I feel like I am falling apart. I hate everything about this deployment. I hate where my husband is, I hate how he is living. I seen pictures and I cried. He shouldnt have to live like that, NO one should have to live like that. They dont give the soldiers enough food, he rarely has a working shower or toliets, if it rains he has a waterfall coming in his room right over his bed, he has no way of washing his laundry...So I have (and his mom) been sending lots of care packages packed with food, I found a washing machine that is ment for camping so I ordered that and sent it. Mail seems to be taking alot longer then it was in the begining so hopefully soon he will be flooded with care packages. I just wish there was more I could do.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Day 04 - A picture of your night - Working out after the kids go to bed....tonight was the 1st night...Umm I am out of shape.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest - My huband he knows me like no one else does
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
WOW What a day
For the past 2 days the power has gone out twice during the day!! The 1st day it was out for like 3-4 hours. Which totally sucked. Today thankfully it was only off for like 1/2 an hour.
I was able to talk to Drew yesterday, which was purely amazing to hear his voice and the girls got to talk to him. :) and he got to hear Ethan yelling....lol He is doing good but sounded completly exhausted. I love him and am so proud of him, but really wish we didnt have to be apart and him be "over there" it seems to be taking them forever to get where they need to be going. I mean he left 6 days ago and they still arent there. I just want him to get settled, figure out what type of communication we will be able to have as he may be in a remote area. Praying he will have either phone or internet access (both is prefered..lol) and please god make time speed up a little quicker it seems to be dragging.
Ethan said Dada and baba today for the 1st time!!!! I could not believe my ears! thankfully had my cell handy and got it on video. Wish Drew was here to hear it in person. But video is the next best thing right?
link to video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CID9S8ejfPs
Kenzie had school today despite all the snow we got. They dont like giving snow days here on post, because everywhere else got a snow day and pretty sure most are getting 1 tomarrow.
Kylie has been well Kylie.. LOL I was making her lunch today and I called her silly goose, to which she called me crazy, so I told her she was crazy...she replied with, "I am telling daddy you called me crazy, when he gets home" LOL Okay Kylie you do that. She is so funny.
30 Day Photo Challenge
30 Day Photo Challenge
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with five facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your fa......vorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the craziest things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
Friday, January 7, 2011
I miss him
Its been a rough day so far. I got to talk to him on IM for a few minutes last night before I went to bed. He said he would call or IM later. Well at 3:30am he IMed me, I IMed back and I am guessing internet cut off cause I havent heard from him since. Oh course It took forever to get back to sleep. I just layed there looking at the laptop hoping and praying he was going to get back on. Nothing. Then this morning Kylie started crying she wanted her daddy back. Which of course mad me cry cause I want him back too. She is such a big Daddy Girl.
I just want to be able to have a conversation with my husband, every time we have talked the internet on his side goes in and out in and out. Missing him so much.
UPDATE
He called it was so amazing to hear his voice again!!!!! I am so happy right now
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Busy Day
Getting things back in order! Okay so I will admit I havent been keeping up with things like I normally do but between having a new baby (3 is alot harder then I thought it would be) and my husband getting ready to leave I let some things go in order to spend more time together as a family. So I am working on organizing everything again and getting back into a routine.
Kenzie had her 1st day back at school today since mid Dec. when they went on Christmas Break. Ethan fell asleep all by himself at nap time. I layed him in his crib when he was sleepy patted his back for about a min. Then gently bounced his mattress for a minute, Then I just stayed by the crib and he drifted off to sleep. No crying :) He shocked me by taking a 3 hour nap! In that time I got to spend some 1 on 1 time with Kylie and clean up the kitchen and sort threw laundry and start putting it away. Its amazing how much laundry a family of 5 creates.
I was doing pretty good today with not breaking down and crying. But then my phone rang when I was in the Kitchen making Dinner. My heart skipped a beat as I bolted to the living room. I grab my phone and look at the screen...its my daughters school. My heart sank and my eyes filled with tears, it wasnt my husband.
I KNOW I can do the whole running the house and raising the kids while he is gone thing, but I dont like it. I want my husband here with me and our kids want there daddy. Its so hard looking in there little sad faces when they say, I want daddy. It pulls at my heart.
I think 1 thing that makes it harder this time for me is all the 1sts he is going to miss with Ethan. He was there form 4-9 months with kenzie so he got to see her crawl, stand, talk, ect...He was there for her 1st Birthday when she took her 1st steps. With Kylie he was there threw the whole 1st year. So he didnt miss any of that. But with Ethan he is going to miss it. He is going to miss him talking, crawling, standing, and maybe walking (depending on R&R). It makes me so sad. I cant even imagine how he feels.
I wish he didnt have to miss a year of our kids lives every other year. Its so hard when he leaves especially in the begining. You dont want to leave your computer in case he gets on IM, you phone never leaves your side, its like everything is on hold. It sucks, its hard to get out of that mind frame. Its heart breaking when you miss that IM or Phone Call. But with 3 kids life goes on, I have to keep going for them. I take it 1 day at a time, try and stay busy. Last deployment I started sewing and bow making and it is something I love doing now. It kepts me busy at night after the kids are in bed.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
He is gone..........
Yesterday was a hard hard day, A day I wish would have never come. A day of heart ache and tears. My husband left for a his 3rd tour "over there". It seemed harder this time then the 1st. It was so much hard watching his hug each of the kids and kiss them good bye. A year is such a long time, so much happens in a year.
Conversation with kenzie earlier
Kenzie, "When will daddy be home?"
Me, "In 1 year"
Kenzie, "Will daddy be home for Christmas?"
Me, "No I do not think so but after Christmas"
Kenzie, "I am going to ask Santa to bring daddy home for Christmas"
Me, (tears rolling down my face)
What am I suppose to say to that? Praying the next year goes by fast
Monday, January 3, 2011
Been Awhile!
Okay a while is an understatement, LOL! Well since last post
Major Events
Drew came Home
I had my breast reduction
Moved to Fort Knox, KY
Got Pregnant in Dec. 2009
Kenzie started Kindergarden
Had a bouncing baby BOY on Aug. 24th 2010
We are getting ready to entire our 3rd deployment
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